February 20, 2006


Posted in Randumb at 7:43 am by Iram

I think it’s very important to have structure in your life. That’s not a very profound statement, but it has a lot to do with a bunch of problems I’ve been facing recently. With school pretty much over, and an overly flexible work schedule, I think I’m turning into more of a slacker than I would like to admit. When I used to have early morning class, I would have to get out of bed and get myself dressed and out the door whether I liked it or not. But now, when my boss couldn’t care less what time I show up to work, and my only class is at 4 in the afternoon, it’s way to easy to hit the snooze button one, two, five, ten, twenty times without giving it a second thought. It’s becoming a very bad habit: stay up late, sleep late, don’t get much done during the day, stay up late again thinking about all the things I meant to do and didn’t do and wondering where all the time went, and following the whole cycle again. I really don’t know what to do with myself. And then, when you have such a relaxed life schedule, little things don’t get done as quickly as they should. It’s almost like when you have all the time in the world, you never have the time to do what really needs to get done because you always figure that you’ll have time to do it later. I don’t know where I’m going with this, except that I felt compelled to post my thoughts online because it was only after realizing how long a gap there was between today and my last post that this entire train of thought came to me. I guess the moral of the story is that even if I have the next ten years of my life planned out, that’s not enough. I have to have a direction that I’m heading towards every single day in order to be able to accomplish anything at all. I guess it was best worded on a posted that used to be on the wall of my second grade classroom: “If you don’t know where you’re going, you’re never going to get there.”

 Just a bit of self-reflection…


  1. i totally agree. i need deadlines,due dates, and appointments or else i feel unproductive. what has society done to us?

  2. atif said,

    in a word? Institutionalization!!

    We need a halfway house like what prisoners get! Where we work partly, but still are students…

    oh yeah … thats grad school …

  3. Saqib said,

    I don’t think it’s entirely about having structure (though it can certainly). You gotta have a dream, and if you’re excited about that dream then you’ll automatically pursue it. That’ll get you fired up to get out of bed in the morning and face the day. It’s like when I make a movie, I have a single purpose that gets me up in the morning and keeps me energized throughout the day. If you follow your dream, you’ll discover more energy than you ever knew you had.
    10 days until my film is released! AAAHHHH!

  4. Marsha said,

    Now that you know you have a problem, you can fix it. Change only happens when we want it too. : )

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